I don’t know how to make sense of this break-up message

This was a while ago now. 28F broke up with me, 26M over text. Had the following to say about it:

“You truly have not done anything wrong. You have been nothing but kind and forthright in the last couple of months.”

“We had a great connection, but I slowly realized that it wasn’t a strong romantic connection that leads to exclusivity, and I apologize that it took me a while to be completely sure about my feelings.”

“Sometimes feelings don’t grow and I really have no further explanation than that”

“I’m so sorry that I disappointed and hurt you”

I was in love with this woman. And at first, she was all over me. Then she slowly showed less and less interest, and eventually dumped me via text. It’s been six months, and I’m still not over it.

I still want her so bad. I’m trying to keep myself from messaging her again. I know it’ll be nothing but desperate, but it’s just so hard to move on. How can I, knowing that even if I do everything “right”, it can go up in flames at the drop of a hat?

She was everything. Funny, smart, artistic, attractive, easygoing, independent. I can’t get her out of my head.

I know that eventually, with enough time, the pain will dull. But it might take a long time. And after half a year, it still hurts SO badly. Why give me a taste of something so great just to take it away? why, why, why