do guys go for “earthy” black girls?

I know i’m not alive to please men. I find myself pretty. I have a lil bit of self-confidence and self-worth. however, I am human, and sometimes I crave the touch and love of a man 🤷🏿‍♀️

i’m 18, just graduated from high school. since I was 15, i’ve dressed like a nerdy, tomboyish version of the “earthy black girl” aesthetic. chunky jewlery, sweaters, flared jeans, bandanas, etc. still feminine- just in my own way. still have long braids, still wear light makeup and lipgloss. I get compliments from women and other girls all the time.

yet I still feel unattractive sometimes. no getting asked out. no getting checked out. my mom used to tell me i should dress “like other girls my age” and show off my body. some friends think i’m too modest and I need to “show my tits” (i’m skinny and flat; besides my thighs, I have NOTHING to show off 💀)

it makes me angry. if i’m pretty, my beauty will show through WHATEVER I wear, modest or not. so why am I being told to dress revealingly to get guys to like me? then again, if no guy’s talking to me, maybe they have a point.

i, a Pennsylvanian, went to a 90% white school in the “rich” part of my city, and I’m staying there for community college (💔). it doesn’t help that a lot of my peers see me as “sheltered” or “innocent”. maybe that’s why? and if they think I’m a lesbian due to the way I dress (because apparently I “dress like a lesbian”, according to many people), I recently started wearing my Bi pin.

sorry this is so messy; I’m just frustrated. do guys like earthy black girls at all?!

(maybe I should just move to Philly..)