Should I ask her out if I’m disabled?

Hey everyone. I’m a 26m and I’m paralyzed from the waist down. I have been for ten years now. I’ve finally started to find peace with myself some days are harder than others. I’m also a big guy 6’5. So whenever I need assistance I just feel really bad just like a burden.

Obviously dating is super hard I don’t blame anyone for not wanting to date a guy like me I get it and understand it I don’t have much to offer. I’m not attractive can’t walk. I don’t have a killer personality I’m a very shy guy always have been.

I’ve tried dating apps I don’t really get any matches. I’ve never been on a date or had my first kiss anything like that.

There’s this girl she’s a 27f she’s my best friend my only friend. I kinda hate myself for it but I’m like so in love with her every time she laughs or smiles my heart just drops. I just don’t see the point in asking her out I’m extremely confident she’d say no and I’m not sure if it’s worth risking losing her as a friend. She’s the only person who treats me like I’m normal.

I just get so much anxiety even thinking about it. Dating as an entirety. I would also be open to dating people who have disabilities as well that would be awesome I know that’s probably going to be commented. Also I’m not in therapy but I used to be it helped also my therapist was very realistic and honest so I never got my hopes up for dating or even making friends.

It’s just been a really hard couple years. Getting used to my new life and my brother died and Grandpa died. My mums health is going downhill as well. I’m lucky my dad’s doing okay but sometimes I feel like he doesn’t want me around like I said a burden.

But my friend doesn’t see it that way. She’s the kindest soul I’ve ever had the pleasure of meeting. She’s also so pretty I’m not sure why she hangs out with me lol

Yeah, do you guys think it’s worth possibly losing my only friend or worse making things awkward and slowly driving apart?

If you made it this far thank you.