Will anyone ever want to be with someone who deals with CPTSD?

I’m feeling pretty hopeless at this point. I watch couples who get along and love with other equally and I cant imaging having that. I have so many issues but the more I isolate the more my social skills deteriorate

I got attached to someone recently and he rejected me- that’s largely how my life has gone. It seems like I have to be literally perfect or else the one moment I slip up, get upset or a little possessive, people abandon me, idk how much more I can take

I try so hard to have a positive attitude and be fun to be around but the mask slips sometimes. I’ll miss a text or respond in a way that’s not bubbly and it’s over

Should I just give up? I’m getting older and it feels hopeless